February 10, 2004

i hate myself! why do i let him affect me this way? why does he have this effect on me?

he drives me crazy.
drives me up the wall.
makes me cry.
makes me feel like i can't live without him.
makes me feel like my world would fall apart without him.
makes me miserable when i don't talk to him.
makes me miss him so damn much.
makes me want him so much.
makes me feel so undeserving of his love.
makes me so paranoid.
makes me doubt myself so much.

i hate the way i'm feeling right now.

and its all because i love him so damn much. i love him with every single beat of my heart. so much that i never wanna lose him. i can't imagine a day being without him. it hurts me so much to breathe. cause i know with every breath i take, it proves that i can live without him!

seesh. what the hell was that all about? right, that's cheryl being emo again +sighs+

<-je -|- t'aime->

--* imperfect unsatisfaction 20:34 *-- [.//cry out**]









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